We discussed adoption before I took out my Nuvaring and starting trying for a family. It felt 100 years away, but looking back, I know God was preparing our hearts for a unique way to grow our family. After we’d been trying to conceive for almost 2 years, we went through a series of fertility testing and the results were devastating.
We didn’t really have an option for fertility treatments. I would have given everything at the time for even a 15% chance of conception, but in hindsight, I’m so grateful that the door was closed and locked. I would have spent years trying to break down that door to experience pregnancy, but instead God directed us back to adoption.
I remember that conversation with my husband so well after his results came back. We went to Market Street, ordered a beer and stared at each other for a while. When I look back at that meeting, I’m so amazed at our initial response. We knew that God was asking us to adopt, and we knew that there was a little girl out there that needed us as a family (it’s so sweet, we always saw our first as a daughter which is what God gave us).
Our purpose is to give God glory, and he will do what he does in our life for his glory. Our story includes the beautiful gift of adoption, and it was hard, oh gosh, it was hard. I know that God could miraculously give us a biological child, but in the meantime, he’s given me a heart for the child without a family.
God used infertility to grow our family through adoption. His miracle was that he brought the most beautiful (if you think I’m biased, join me for a trip to the grocery store where I have to swat people off my daughter because they are obsessing over her! ;), sweet daughter into our life through the gift of adoption. You can let NIAW breed fear in your life, or ask God how he is going to redeem this struggle.
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