You're gonna be ok

Wow, this song. It is so real, so raw, and so true. "Just take one step closer, put one foot in front of the other. You'll get through this, just follow the light in the darkness, you're gonna be ok." 

Keeping it together, appearing and being strong, remaining hopeful. Those things are hard. But we want to encourage you today to put this song on and keep hoping in your Savior! You ARE going to be okay.

When your heart is heavy. When you're overwhelmed. When you're drowning in life or death or sadness or anxiety. HOLD ON. "Just take one step closer. Put one put in front of the other. You'll get through this, just follow the light in the darkness. You're gonna be ok."

You're gonna be ok.

Brian and Jenn Johnson

When you feel let down

Have you been enjoying Worship Wednesdays? This week I have a burden. A burden to remind my friends that God does not fall off of His thrown. That He is good and always will be. That He will never let you down!

This song is currently one of my absolute favorites. The cry of my soul is that God alone would be the wind inside my sails, the anchor in the waves, and the fire inside my veins! I want HIM to be my song. I want everyone who sees me to feel God's goodness.

I love the bridge- "You're never gonna let me down."

But you have been let down, right? I have too.

I've been heartbroken, abandoned, isolated, left out and uninvited. I've been let down. I've had to wait, and I've had to struggle. I've been sick and I've lost babies and I've had to fight. But GOD NEVER LET ME DOWN.

The enemy has attacked. The Lord has allowed challenges. He's allowed them to grow my faith, to develop my character, and to enhance my weaknesses so HE can be glorified. And through it all, He was and is good. And He never let me down. I know I will have disappointments and hurts and struggles in the future. God never promised us an easy life. But He did say He'd be there with us through all of it!

So be strong and courageous! Do not be afraid and do not panic before them. For the LORD your God will personally go ahead of you. He will neither fail you nor abandon you.
— Deut 31:6 NLT

In fact, when I look back at every one of the struggles, heartbreaks, and failings in my life– He was there. He was right there. Every bit of good that has come in my life has been from Him. 

There's a live version of this song on YouTube with Steffany Gretzinger that includes some spontaneous worship, and I'm SO drawn to these lines:

"When nothing's going right and it all falls apart– You're good.

When everything is going right– You're still good.

So we will prophesy this morning into every situation. That you have never changed and you never will. Because you are good."

It's not in His nature to let us down. And He never will.

Worship with us today, and lay your disappointments at His feet. 

King Of My Heart by Bethel Music

Every Battle

Join us for a moment of worship today!

Every battle, even the seemingly impossible, belongs to the Lord. He is fighting for you as you hide in Him. Lay down the burden of fighting for yourself and lift your hands to the Lord! 

I encourage you to read through the lyrics before you listen. Let them soak in! 

Every Battle by Rita Springer

Every imposter, every contender will fail to compare with You
There is no kingdom, authority, power like Yours
No one more royal, no other loyal than one God, one truth
No other kingdom, no other freedom like Yours

You are high, high and lifted up
Strong and mighty enough, You are King
And I hide, covered by Your wings
And it’s there You fight for me
And every battle, every battle is Yours

No greater rescue than when You came through with strong love, strong love
All my accusers, silenced and scattered by You
Your people arising, we realize it is finished, it’s finished
Stand in the promise it is accomplished in You

You are high, high and lifted up
Strong and mighty enough, You are King
And I hide, covered by Your wings
And it’s there You fight for me
And every battle, every battle is Yours

No gods or idols, no princes or powered will have my worship
No threat of darkness, no fear of failing will steal my purpose
You’re my surrender, protector, defender
And every battle, every battle is Yours

You are high, high and lifted up
Strong and mighty enough, You are King
And I hide, covered by Your wings
And it’s there You fight for me
And every battle, every battle
Every battle, every battle is Yours
Is Yours

Take Courage- Bethel Music

"So take courage my heart,

Stay steadfast my soul

He's in the waiting

He's in the waiting

Hold onto your hope

As your triumph unfolds

He's never failing

He's never failing" 

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And it's kind of like Tom's... for each book you give, we give one to a grieving momma! So really, YOU'RE giving one to a grieving momma!!

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8 scriptures to pray over your fertility!

When I don't know what to pray, I either pray in the Spirit or I pray scripture! And today I want to share 8 amazing scriptures to pray over your fertility! Whether you just got married or have been struggling with infertility for years... these scriptures are LIFE-GIVING!!! 

No freshly spoken word of God will ever come to you that does not contain its own ability to perform itself.
— Bill Johnson

A scripture that comes to mind along with that Bill Johnson quote is Isaiah 55:11 "So is my word that goes out from my mouth: It will not return to me empty, but will accomplish what I desire and achieve the purpose for which I sent it."

So maybe you're not even sure what to pray anymore or you just want to take your prayer life to the next level. Either way, whatever the reason... these scriptures are LIFE over your fertility!

Please Pin the graphic above so other ladies can find it when searching! Here they are in easy-to-read format:

Mark 11:24 I tell you, you can pray for anything, and if you believe that you’ve received it, it will be yours.

Psalm 113:9 He gives the childless woman a family, making her a happy mother. Praise the Lord!

Psalm 84:11 For the Lord God is a sun and shield; the Lord bestows favor and honor. No good thing does he withhold from those who walk uprightly.

Hebrews 11:11 It was by faith that even Sarah was able to have a child, though she was barren and was too old. She believed that God would keep his promise.

John 15:7 If you abide in me, and my words abide in you, ask whatever you wish, and it will be done for you.

Jeremiah 30:17 For I will restore health to you, and your wounds I will heal.

Psalm 34:19 The righteous person faces many troubles, but the Lord comes to the rescue each time.

Jeremiah 29:11 "For I know the plans I have for you," says the Lord. “They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope.


Nothing is Impossible!

It's Worship Wednesday here at I Am Fruitful, and we hope you'll take a few minutes to submit yourself before the Lord and praise Him!

I feel like this community needs a good reminder that NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE!!

Read the chorus and then worship with us!!

I know, nothing is impossible
I know, every chain is breakable
I know, on Christ the solid rock I stand!
My fear, is conquered by His perfect love
My life, is ransomed by His royal blood
I know, on Christ the solid rock I stand

Join our baby loss facebook group

We LOVE our social media pages and all the community that's there. But we felt there was a need to have a group SPECIFICALLY for baby loss (any term or type of miscarriage, stillbirth, or infant death). So today we opened the new group, and we want to invite you.

If you have recently experienced the loss of a baby, you are welcome to join.

If you experienced the loss of a baby not-so-recently, you are welcome to join.

If you experienced the loss of a  baby decades ago and still haven't processed through it all, you are welcome.

And if you experienced this and have come out stronger on the other side and feel you can support others, you are SO welcome!! In fact, we NEED YOU!

Heck, if you have someone close to you who has experienced this and you feel equipped to support other ladies- YOU'RE WELCOME TOO!

Let's create a culture of supporting our sisters. Let's create an atmosphere for miracles. Let's lift each other up in prayer from all across the world and just watch what God does!!!

He dries every tear that falls

It's Worship Wednesday, and man do I need it. I need to worship EVERY day!

This week I felt the Holy Spirit leading me to share Rita Springer's This Blood. It's been a heck of a week, I'll be real. A LOT of emotions this week as my family is facing a horrible situation. A lot of pain and desperation and heartbreak. And as I've been interceding for a situation and just crying out to the Lord and asking a lot of "why" questions, these lyrics keep standing out to me: "He dries every tear that falls."

Your tears are not forgotten. They are all collected by a loving Father. And even when we turn our backs on Him, betray Him, forget Him, don't trust Him (whatever it is)... He is still good. He is still faithful. He still loves us and would give anything, even His son, to bring us close to Him.

Another thing about this song that rocked me this week is the power of the blood! It heals the sick, it finds the lonely, it frees those who are bound!! And that same blood has the power to free the heaviest, thickest, and most tightly bound chains.

So as you worship with us this week, give your burdens over to Him. Cry a few tears if you need to (Lord knows I've cried enough for all of us this week). Worship the Lord and let Him take your chains and your pain and whatever is keeping you bound.



There is a blood
That cost a life
That paid my way
Death its price
When it flowed
Down from the cross
My sins were gone
My sins forgot

There is a grave
That tried to hide
This precious blood
That gave me life
In Three Days
He breathed again
And rose to stand in my defense

So I come to tell you He's alive
To tell you that He dries every tear that falls
So I come to tell you that He saves
To shout and to proclaim that He's coming back for you
This Life, This Price, This Blood, This One

There is a Blood
That sights the blind
That Heals the sick
The lonely finds
It has the Power
To free the bound
As chains they fall
Upon the ground

So pour it out and
To cleanse my soul
And let its crimson Glory flow
Because it lives
To make me whole
I owe my life
I owe my soul


One family's foster care journey to parenthood

Most of you probably don't know that we were just days away from having a foster baby in our home when we found out we were pregnant with Farrah, our second-born. Foster care is so close to my heart, and at I Am Fruitful, we desire to encourage couples to grow their families the way the LORD is leading!! I hope this story from Hillary Massey will encourage you in your own journey!!

Early on in our marriage we were diagnosed with Unexplained Infertility. We had 2 unsuccessful IUIs that left us emotionally drained and with a IVF recommendation. We did not feel led to IVF and we decided to pursue foster care.

Foster care was always our plan after biological children. This already being on my heart made the decision to discontinue treatment easier. We knew we might not be able to adopt from foster care but that was okay.

Take delight in the Lord, and He will give you the desires of your heart.
— Psalm 37:4

God gave us the desire to be parents, so maybe that meant just being foster parents. Who were we to demand God make us parents the way we saw fit?

We dove into training, paperwork, and home studies. We were approved in the middle of the night, to allow us to receive our first placement of 2 little boys. We fell in love with them and were their Mommy and Daddy for almost a year. Two months before they were reunified we accepted placement of a 7 month old baby girl.

God's handiwork was all over that situation and we adopted her at 15 months old in April 2016. 

My daughter's beginning was hard. And our journey to her was not easy. God made our hard places fit together and has shown me He can write beautiful stories if we just let Him.

I am finally in a place where I can truly say that Infertility has been one of my greatest blessings!

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Let's Go Worship!

Last week I posted our Worship Wednesday song on Insta but not here, so scroll down to watch last week's Worship Wednesday video as well!! In Texas terms- it's a twofer.

Sometimes we need a little get up and GO, am I right?! Worship with us today as we ask God to activate the faith within us and celebrate. No matter what our circumstances proclaim, God has victory for us to take hold of. Now Let's GO!

Wednesday, May 3

Are you believing for God to move in you in a way that you've seen before in someone else? Join us in worship and declare, no matter how many months it's been, no matter how many negative tests you've held, no matter what the doctors say: I'm still in your hands God and I believe I'll see you do it again! 

Crying may last through the night, but joy comes in the morning.
— Psalms 30:5

TTCers Guide to Embracing Baby Mania

The Lord will guide you continually, watering your life when you are dry and keeping you healthy, too. You will be like a well watered garden like an ever-flowing spring.
— Isaiah 58:11

Pregnancies, baby showers, births, newborns... IT'S BABY MANIA OUT HERE! When you're TTC, babies seem to be everywhere, don't they? Those round, full bellies can follow you like your shadow. Facebook might as well be renamed Pregobook. When the one thing your longing is constantly in.your.face. it can be difficult (understatement!) to deal in a healthful way. When I say healthful, I mean FULL of health. Not merely healthy, or lacking disease, but healthFUL, meaning filling you full of health. So... how can you face Baby Mania in a way that fills you with health? FYI, this is a not a, "PULL YOURSELF UP AND GET YOURSELF TOGETHER" message. No, we all know that approach is temporary at best

The thing is, you very rightfully have real feelings and emotions when you encounter pregnancies and babies. Real feelings and emotions that God cares deeply about. Instead of pushing through on your own, let's go to God together. Let's hear His heart on baby mania in a TTC season. 


1. Assess your thoughts

Everything that settles in our hearts starts with a thought. The enemy wants to put all kinds of discouraging thoughts in our minds. If you don't take those thoughts captive, your mind becomes a ripe battleground for jealously, bitterness, anger. The GREAT news is this, you CAN overcome! Yes, you can. 

Renewing your mind is an ongoing work for the Christian, but your dedication will yield a precious harvest: becoming one with the mind of Christ. See: 2 Corinthians 10:5, Romans 12:2, James 4:7, Isaiah 26:3, Philippians 4:8

Don't allow your season of waiting to taint your view of those who aren't walking in your shoes. They probably don't understand. They may seem (or actually be) insensitive to the very real struggle of waiting month after month after month. Things may be said or done that are off color and offensive to you. Remember this: no one has control over your thoughts besides you. It is in your hands to choose the thoughts of God.

Okay it's action time! Take a mental inventory. What's going on in that mind of yours in regards to Baby Mania? Ask God to identify one area that He desires to renew right now. Is renewing your mind an area that you struggle in? I would highly recommend the book Battlefield of the Mind by Joyce Meyer. 


2. Address your feelings  

Once you assess your thoughts, you might notice that there some key areas with which you struggle. DO NOT ignore them! I repeat: do not ignore!!! Don't try to power through, push it down, or be better. Don't ignore what you feel, but don't allow Satan to use it either. Instead, be vulnerable with God, with your spouse, and with trusted friends. Don't live in the hurt/anger/jealousy/doubt/fear/etc. alone. God is not afraid of your blunt honesty. In fact, He desires it! Reading through the Psalms is a great reminder for me that it is not a sin to feel. Run to God with your raw, unrefined, unfiltered emotion. 

Jesus' prayer in Gethsemane (Mathew 26:36-46) and His loud cry from the cross (Matthew 27:46) are painful examples of the vulnerability that God desires from us. He does not want us to hide our feelings and attempt to haphazardly manage them on our own. Our God is a kind and loving Father. His desire is to take your hand and draw you closer. 

What raw feelings do you need to take to God? Take a few minutes to write down 3 feelings that you have when you encounter Baby Mania. Have you taken those to the Father? It's never too late to start. 


3. Assemble a plan

Do you know that God cares about every baby shower you face? Every pregnant belly that takes you by surprise? He really does! Get vision from God for what this season looks like for you. Ask God for wisdom on how to respond to these situations. What does celebrating new life look like for you? The answer will be different for everyone. For some, it might mean not agreeing to host yet another baby shower at this time. For others, God might be leading you to host the shower, even though it will be hard. Is God asking you to serve in the church nursery? Deliver a prophetic word to a new mom instead of avoiding her? Whatever it is, get wisdom from the Father. 

It's peculiar to read through the Jewish laws (example Leviticus 11), instructions on building a tabernacle (Exodus 26), or the detailed genealogies (Numbers). Why is this SO incredibly specific? How does this apply to today? Here's my take away: while God's covenant with us has changed, His character has not. He cares deeply, even about the smallest details of our lives. 

Take a moment to ask God this question, "what is one word to describe how you desire for me to embrace Baby Mania?" Ask and listen and ask some more. Ask about specific upcoming Baby Mania scenarios.


4. Act accordingly

HA, easier said than done! If you've gone through all four of these steps, you've equipped yourself with the tools and foundation to healthfully embrace Baby Mania. It's okay if it's hard. It might be hard, but it's not impossible. Pray through it! You aren't doing this on your own. Jesus is with you, always. Holy Spirit is by your side. Remember that you have a divine helper. 

Rebuke the enemy when he comes around. My favorite mental trick to rebuking the enemy? Brace yourself. This is very technically and theologically advanced. Okay, I'm exaggerating... a lot. Here it is, my handy, dandy, devil whoopin tool... "not today, Satan." That's it. Sometimes I add in a "not tomorrow, or ever," sometimes it's aloud, sometimes in my heart, but really that one tiny sentence is my sword. Not. Today. #NOPE. Speak life, dear sister, and declare, "Today, I will seek the mind Christ. Today, I will be vulnerable with God. Today, I will submit to God's vision for this season. Today, I can do this."

- Article written by Hailee Seiwert

A huge thanks to Hailee Seiwert for contributing this amazing article! Hailee is our Project Coordinator here at I Am Fruitful, and she is SUCH a valuable part of our team!! 

Her heart for the Lord and maturity in the Word are so clear in her writing! We know her article will encourage and bless you as you continue to pursue the Lord while growing your family!