Perfect Peace

by Hailee Seiwert

"You will keep in perfect peace all who trust in you, all whose thoughts are fixed on you!" Isaiah 26:3

What a beautiful verse!! I read that and my heart cries out, I WANT IT AND I WANT IT NOW (Veruca Salt in Willy Wonka, anyone?!?). Peace is altogether complicated and simple at the same time. When we don't have it, it feels impossible to obtain, but when we do have peace it appears as that immovable, unshakeable, life changing kind of stuff. Peace isn't a thing we can grab off the grocery store shelf when we're running low, it's not available on Amazon Prime, and Jesus even says that the world can't give it. Peace isn't the absence of troubles in your life or emotions in your heart. So what is it?

Peace is the realized presence of Jesus in your life. 

1. Peace is given

“I am leaving you with a gift—peace of mind and heart. And the peace I give is a gift the world cannot give. So don’t be troubled or afraid. Remember what I told you: I am going away, but I will come back to you again." John 14:27-28

Peace is a precious gift from Jesus. This great gift came at the high price of life, death, and resurrection. This gift wasn't free. If someone handed you the most expensive gift EVER on the entire planet (no I'm not talking about diamonds and red soled shoes), how would you handle it? I'd like to challenge us as believers, as followers of Christ, as beneficiaries of His great sacrifice to handle the gift of peace like the precious gift that it is. I'd like to challenge us to protect peace in our own lives, to guard our peace with great ferocity, and to seek it out when we are drifting away. 


2. Peace is received

"So letting your sinful nature control your mind leads to death. But letting the Spirit control your mind leads to life and peace" Romans 8:6

Receiving Jesus is receiving peace, but I've learned that many times we complicate that simple truth. Receiving is not a passive act, but a conscious decision. 

When you chose Jesus, you chose peace, but the choice for peace doesn't end there. We've all felt this, right? Sunday churchin' leaves me feeling happy as a clam, but then Monday morning happens. Heartache happens. Hurt happens. Health issues happen. Peace is chosen over and over and over again as we weather the storms of life, as we climb to the mountaintops and descend into the valleys.


3. Peace has an enemy

Actually, at times I think peace has two enemies: satan and our own precious selves. Satan is obvious... he comes to kill, steal, and destroy. Undoubtedly, the enemy will try and steal your peace. He will try and convince you that you can find peace where it doesn't exist (aka anywhere except Jesus). But me? How am I an enemy to my own peace? Here's the hard truth: when we allow our emotions to have more power than God's truth, we oppose peace. A great friend once spoke three words that would change my life, "feelings are liars." I don't know if he knew those words would change my life, but they did. Feeling aren't always liars, but they also aren't always true. 

These words have been hard for me to type, because I've been there. I've lived a life that was riddled with constant and overwhelming emotions. There was a time when I couldn't imagine a world in which I had true, lasting peace. I would let myself be overtaken with what I was feeling, leaving peace in the dust behind me. I would find myself feeling desperate and alone, eventually walking, no running, to find peace again. You would often hear me say things like, "she is making me angry," "this is making me upset." I had to learn the hard way that nothing was making me do anything, I was letting these things control me. No one besides Jesus has the power to make me feel or do anything. Once I learned that, I began to guard my precious gift of peace. I began to choose peace daily, hourly, minute-ly, and sometimes even by the second. I acknowledge now that peace has an enemy or two, but that GOD has the ultimate say. The truth is that WE WIN! Nothing and no one can defeat you or your peace. 

Are you lacking peace today? I believe it is God's will to restore peace in your heart today. Pray with me to receive God's peace in every area of your life. 

Jesus, you are Lord. You are King. I receive your peace in this moment, but also the moments to follow. Instill in me the true value of your peace. Holy Spirit help me to guard and protect your peace in my life. Show me the areas that I struggle most and lead me to repentance. Help me to choose your and your peace day in and day out. I want to follow you with my every breath. Father, let me not be my own enemy in this area. Help me with my emotions. Remind me that peace is always possible. Bring me peace, in Jesus name. 

No longer slaves

It's Worship Wednesday!! Let's lift our voices together today in a powerful declaration that we are no longer slaves, we are children of God! Hallelujah and AMEN! 

No Longer Slaves by Voices of Lee

Prayer's Precious Power

Prayer’s Precious Power

Guest post by Jennifer Stewart-Burton of Jenn Finding Joy blog.


We navigated it largely in silence, like a dark shameful secret we were trying to hide in a closet hoping no one would open the door. We fielded the innocent questions of the well-intentioned who wondered why our home was void of little feet at the exact same time that we were enduring endless appointments, tests, hormone injections and procedures.

“It’s so personal,” we rationalized. After all, it’s not like infertility and the gory details of fertility treatments are common dinner party conversations.

It was in the pain of miscarriage that I realized we had needed the support and prayers of our family and friends all along. We were exhausted, then came the grief and in the midst of it, we also had to come clean to family and friends about the secret we’d been keeping. It was almost unbearable. In that time, I realized we had robbed ourselves of the sweet gift of others’ prayers and we had taken away our loved ones’ opportunities to pray over us.

In the days and weeks following our loss, we slowly started sharing our story – first with family and close friends and eventually publicly on my blog. We had no idea what to expect from sharing our story. What we got was support and prayers from hundreds of fellow believers.

Those prayers changed everything.

When our loved ones hit their praying knees and stormed the gates of Heaven on our behalf, a sense of peace and hope came over our home and hearts in a way that can only be explained as coming from Jesus Christ himself. In the moments when I struggled to know how to pray, our friends and family made sure our story was continuously whispered in God’s ear. What a gift!

Do you remember the story of Jesus healing the paralytic after the man’s friends lowered him through a roof to get him to Jesus? If not, check out Luke 5:17-25. In this particular Gospel story, a paralyzed man was completely healed because of the faith of his friends. The man literally stood up and walked home because his friends knew that if they could get him to Jesus, he would be healed.

How’s that for power in our loved ones approaching the throne on our behalf?!

As healing has taken hold in my own life, our prayer warriors have now shifted their prayers to our future. They’re joining us in asking Jesus to grant us direction in the decisions we have to make and peace in His will. They’re believing with us for the miracle child we so long for. There is so much joy and hope in knowing others are petitioning God for the desires of your heart.

Friend, maybe you’re the me of a few months ago – the one hiding and hoping no one sees your burden. Oh how I remember the that weight. I hope that today you’ll realize that you have nothing to hide. You don’t have to carry this alone. I hope that, even if you’re not in a place to go public with your pain, you will think of at least a few people you can allow to go to Jesus on your behalf.

The prayers of fellow believers have changed everything for me, and they have the power to do the same for you.




Jennifer is a Jesus-loving wife, dog mom, marketing manager and farmers’ daughter.

She grew up on the family farm outside of Needham, Ind., alongside a human brother, puppy sister and a few cows. She met Jake, her husband of seven years, after graduating from Purdue University. They call Lafayette, Ind., home. The two attend Calvary Church where Jennifer discovered her passions for international missions and women’s ministry. She recently revived her three-years-dormant blog, Jenn Finding Joy, to share the love of Jesus Christ through her and Jake’s story of infertility and loss. Her hope is that God will use their story and her words to encourage others in their own faith journeys.

When Jennifer isn’t working, volunteering or blogging, she can be found at the gym, on the farm or in the recliner with a cup of coffee. She and Jake enjoy beach vacations, grilled foods, and summer days on the boardwalk at Lake Shafer. They are head-over-heels for their nieces and nephews and look forward to being parents themselves in God’s time. Follow Jennifer on Instagram at @jennfindingjoy.

Joy Comes in the Morning: Coloring Through Infant Loss & Miscarriage

If you have experienced a miscarriage, still birth, or infant loss- this coloring book is for you!  It also makes a thoughtful gift for a friend going through the devastating loss of a baby. 

This collection of designs forms a beautiful and therapeutic tool for grieving. It provides a creative way to express your grief while meditating on the Word of God and filling your mind with truth.

It is a beautiful collection of over 25 inspiring pages designed by artists from Alaska to Hawaii, from East Coast to West! The pages include a variety of styles, ink drawings, and digital creations. Many of the artists have experienced miscarriage or infant loss, and on the back of each page they share encouragement for the grieving heart.


What a powerful name it is!


Will you worship with us today? Wherever you are, whatever time it is, take just a few minutes and praise His beautiful, wonderful, powerful name!! There is so much in the name of Jesus! We can find freedom in His name, we have power by using his name, we can experience peace with His name, there is increased anointing with His name!

I posted the lyrics below, but I LOVE this so much:

"You have no rival, You have no equal
Now and forever, Our God reigns"

I think so often we become wrapped up in what our situation looks like that we forget HE IS BIGGER! He has no rival, and Satan is not His equal. He has authority over the enemy and we have that same authority in His name!

What a Beautiful Name Lyrics:

You were the Word at the beginning
One With God the Lord Most High
Your hidden glory in creation
Now revealed in You our Christ

What a beautiful Name it is
What a beautiful Name it is
The Name of Jesus Christ my King

What a beautiful Name it is
Nothing compares to this
What a beautiful Name it is
The Name of Jesus

You didn't want heaven without us
So Jesus, You brought heaven down
My sin was great, Your love was greater
What could separate us now

What a wonderful Name it is
What a wonderful Name it is
The Name of Jesus Christ my King

What a wonderful Name it is
Nothing compares to this
What a wonderful Name it is
The Name of Jesus
What a wonderful Name it is
The Name of Jesus

How sweet is your name, Lord, how good You are
Love to sing in the name of the Lord, love to sing for you all?
Death could not hold You, the veil tore before You
You silenced the boast, of sin and grave
The heavens are roaring, the praise of Your glory
For You are raised to life again

You have no rival, You have no equal
Now and forever, Our God reigns
Yours is the Kingdom, Yours is the glory
Yours is the Name, above all names

What a powerful Name it is
What a powerful Name it is
The Name of Jesus Christ my King

What a powerful Name it is
Nothing can stand against
What a powerful Name it is
The Name of Jesus

P L E A S E (or Pleaser?)

P L E A S E (or Pleaser?)

Guest Post by Jenny Stecklair of In The Everyday blog and Stecklair Event Co.

And without faith it is impossible to please God. For whoever comes to God must believe that He is, and that He is a rewarder of those who seek Him.
— Hebrews 11:6

What pleases God?  We often assume it's our best self efforts and stellar behavior. We busy ourselves with good things - serving where we can, giving when we can.....but what if I do all of this good and it still doesn't seem like God is "pleased" with me?  Then what?  

In John 9, Jesus and His disciples encounter a man born blind.  "And His disciples asked Him, 'Rabbi, who sinned, this man or his parents, that he would be born blind?'” (verse 2). Do you see it?  They think the same way we often do. This man's life is hard - he was born blind. Someone must have done something wrong and God is ticked.  Why else would this happen?  They are trying to make sense of circumstances that are too heartbreaking to understand. But what was Jesus' reply?

Jesus answered, ‘It was neither that this man sinned, nor his parents; but it was so that the works of God might be displayed in him.’
— John 9:3

No one is to blame. No one could or should have tried any harder. Better behavior wouldn't have guaranteed he would be able to see at birth. There's nothing anyone could do to change these circumstances, or so many others. 

My husband lost his job and we can't make ends meet. Yet another miscarriage leaves me feeling devastated and hopeless. We have prayed and prayed, but my friend still lost her battle with cancer. Why? What more can I do?  What should I have done? If I am living my life to please God, why does it feel like He has forgotten me? 

Maybe we've got it all wrong, and our doubt and frustration with God is the fruit of doing things our way.

What if all the "good" we busy ourselves with distracts us from the greater, deeper work of choosing to believe that He is all that He says He is? 

Could anything please and honor God more than my devotion regardless of the circumstances, choosing to believe He is a REWARDER of those who seek Him?  

Try as I might to please God, He makes it clear to me what pleases Him most – a faith-worth-seeking, pursuing, craving. He's a rewarder of those who SEEK Him. Just Him, the person of Christ.  God the Father. His face, not His hand. Do you really believe that?  Can you really say today in your struggles and hardship that you KNOW God to be a rewarder?  If not, why not?  

The truth is, it's easier to just keep trying and doing; it makes us feel like maybe we have some control. Faith in God and all that He says He is is harder than applying our own self effort. I don't know where you are or what you are dealing with today, but I know He is a rewarder. He is good. So good. More than fair, He tips the scales in our favor blessing us beyond all that we can even imagine.  

So today, be a God pleaser.  Choose Him. Trust Him. Seek Him. Tell everyone you know that He is faithful. He tells us that pleases Him most.  As you do, you will discover the sweet reward or His joy - it will become your strength (Nehemiah 8:10). As you focus on Him and not your circumstances, you will experience a joy so good it could only come straight from the source of joy, God Himself.  

Then do it again tomorrow.  Bask in the pleasure of our Good Good Father, friends.  Amen!

Jenny Stecklair

Writer. Wife. Mother.

Jenny was born and raised in San Diego, California.  She has attended the same church, Foothills, since she was 10.  This is where she met many of her closest friends and her husband, Weston. Attending and working at the church, Jenny discovered her love for the Word of God, bringing people together, and planning events. Jenny and her husband recently started having children, which pushed them to get creative so she can stay at home with her kiddos.

They have started a business renting Farm Tables, Benches and Market Lighting, as well as coordination services, for weddings and events. She loves that she gets to do what she loves through the week while being at home with her babies. When they aren't dropping off tables and stringing up lights, Jenny can usually be found at a coffee shop, park or church. In this new season of life, Jenny has learned A LOT about marriage, herself and how much God loves.

Memorial Day Sale!

For one day only, our coloring book JOY COMES IN THE MORNING: COLORING THROUGH INFANT LOSS & MISCARRIAGE is 40% off when you use code: MEMORIALDAY.

If you buy 3, you can also use code: SHIPMORE to receive $5 off shipping!

And it's kind of like Tom's... for each book you give, we give one to a grieving momma! So really, YOU'RE giving one to a grieving momma!!

More about the book HERE:

8 scriptures to pray over your fertility!

When I don't know what to pray, I either pray in the Spirit or I pray scripture! And today I want to share 8 amazing scriptures to pray over your fertility! Whether you just got married or have been struggling with infertility for years... these scriptures are LIFE-GIVING!!! 

No freshly spoken word of God will ever come to you that does not contain its own ability to perform itself.
— Bill Johnson

A scripture that comes to mind along with that Bill Johnson quote is Isaiah 55:11 "So is my word that goes out from my mouth: It will not return to me empty, but will accomplish what I desire and achieve the purpose for which I sent it."

So maybe you're not even sure what to pray anymore or you just want to take your prayer life to the next level. Either way, whatever the reason... these scriptures are LIFE over your fertility!

Please Pin the graphic above so other ladies can find it when searching! Here they are in easy-to-read format:

Mark 11:24 I tell you, you can pray for anything, and if you believe that you’ve received it, it will be yours.

Psalm 113:9 He gives the childless woman a family, making her a happy mother. Praise the Lord!

Psalm 84:11 For the Lord God is a sun and shield; the Lord bestows favor and honor. No good thing does he withhold from those who walk uprightly.

Hebrews 11:11 It was by faith that even Sarah was able to have a child, though she was barren and was too old. She believed that God would keep his promise.

John 15:7 If you abide in me, and my words abide in you, ask whatever you wish, and it will be done for you.

Jeremiah 30:17 For I will restore health to you, and your wounds I will heal.

Psalm 34:19 The righteous person faces many troubles, but the Lord comes to the rescue each time.

Jeremiah 29:11 "For I know the plans I have for you," says the Lord. “They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope.


Nothing is Impossible!

It's Worship Wednesday here at I Am Fruitful, and we hope you'll take a few minutes to submit yourself before the Lord and praise Him!

I feel like this community needs a good reminder that NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE!!

Read the chorus and then worship with us!!

I know, nothing is impossible
I know, every chain is breakable
I know, on Christ the solid rock I stand!
My fear, is conquered by His perfect love
My life, is ransomed by His royal blood
I know, on Christ the solid rock I stand

Join our brand new group for baby loss

We LOVE our social media pages and all the community that's there. But we felt there was a need to have a group SPECIFICALLY for baby loss (any term or type of miscarriage, stillbirth, or infant death). So today we opened the new group, and we want to invite you.

If you have recently experienced the loss of a baby, you are welcome to join.

If you experienced the loss of a baby not-so-recently, you are welcome to join.

If you experienced the loss of a  baby decades ago and still haven't processed through it all, you are welcome.

And if you experienced this and have come out stronger on the other side and feel you can support others, you are SO welcome!! In fact, we NEED YOU!

Heck, if you have someone close to you who has experienced this and you feel equipped to support other ladies- YOU'RE WELCOME TOO!

Let's create a culture of supporting our sisters. Let's create an atmosphere for miracles. Let's lift each other up in prayer from all across the world and just watch what God does!!!

He dries every tear that falls

It's Worship Wednesday, and man do I need it. I need to worship EVERY day!

This week I felt the Holy Spirit leading me to share Rita Springer's This Blood. It's been a heck of a week, I'll be real. A LOT of emotions this week as my family is facing a horrible situation. A lot of pain and desperation and heartbreak. And as I've been interceding for a situation and just crying out to the Lord and asking a lot of "why" questions, these lyrics keep standing out to me: "He dries every tear that falls."

Your tears are not forgotten. They are all collected by a loving Father. And even when we turn our backs on Him, betray Him, forget Him, don't trust Him (whatever it is)... He is still good. He is still faithful. He still loves us and would give anything, even His son, to bring us close to Him.

Another thing about this song that rocked me this week is the power of the blood! It heals the sick, it finds the lonely, it frees those who are bound!! And that same blood has the power to free the heaviest, thickest, and most tightly bound chains.

So as you worship with us this week, give your burdens over to Him. Cry a few tears if you need to (Lord knows I've cried enough for all of us this week). Worship the Lord and let Him take your chains and your pain and whatever is keeping you bound.



There is a blood
That cost a life
That paid my way
Death its price
When it flowed
Down from the cross
My sins were gone
My sins forgot

There is a grave
That tried to hide
This precious blood
That gave me life
In Three Days
He breathed again
And rose to stand in my defense

So I come to tell you He's alive
To tell you that He dries every tear that falls
So I come to tell you that He saves
To shout and to proclaim that He's coming back for you
This Life, This Price, This Blood, This One

There is a Blood
That sights the blind
That Heals the sick
The lonely finds
It has the Power
To free the bound
As chains they fall
Upon the ground

So pour it out and
To cleanse my soul
And let its crimson Glory flow
Because it lives
To make me whole
I owe my life
I owe my soul


One family's foster care journey to parenthood

Most of you probably don't know that we were just days away from having a foster baby in our home when we found out we were pregnant with Farrah, our second-born. Foster care is so close to my heart, and at I Am Fruitful, we desire to encourage couples to grow their families the way the LORD is leading!! I hope this story from Hillary Massey will encourage you in your own journey!!

Early on in our marriage we were diagnosed with Unexplained Infertility. We had 2 unsuccessful IUIs that left us emotionally drained and with a IVF recommendation. We did not feel led to IVF and we decided to pursue foster care.

Foster care was always our plan after biological children. This already being on my heart made the decision to discontinue treatment easier. We knew we might not be able to adopt from foster care but that was okay.

Take delight in the Lord, and He will give you the desires of your heart.
— Psalm 37:4

God gave us the desire to be parents, so maybe that meant just being foster parents. Who were we to demand God make us parents the way we saw fit?

We dove into training, paperwork, and home studies. We were approved in the middle of the night, to allow us to receive our first placement of 2 little boys. We fell in love with them and were their Mommy and Daddy for almost a year. Two months before they were reunified we accepted placement of a 7 month old baby girl.

God's handiwork was all over that situation and we adopted her at 15 months old in April 2016. 

My daughter's beginning was hard. And our journey to her was not easy. God made our hard places fit together and has shown me He can write beautiful stories if we just let Him.

I am finally in a place where I can truly say that Infertility has been one of my greatest blessings!

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Let's Go Worship!

Last week I posted our Worship Wednesday song on Insta but not here, so scroll down to watch last week's Worship Wednesday video as well!! In Texas terms- it's a twofer.

Sometimes we need a little get up and GO, am I right?! Worship with us today as we ask God to activate the faith within us and celebrate. No matter what our circumstances proclaim, God has victory for us to take hold of. Now Let's GO!

Wednesday, May 3

Are you believing for God to move in you in a way that you've seen before in someone else? Join us in worship and declare, no matter how many months it's been, no matter how many negative tests you've held, no matter what the doctors say: I'm still in your hands God and I believe I'll see you do it again! 

Crying may last through the night, but joy comes in the morning.
— Psalms 30:5

TTCers Guide to Embracing Baby Mania

The Lord will guide you continually, watering your life when you are dry and keeping you healthy, too. You will be like a well watered garden like an ever-flowing spring.
— Isaiah 58:11

Pregnancies, baby showers, births, newborns... IT'S BABY MANIA OUT HERE! When you're TTC, babies seem to be everywhere, don't they? Those round, full bellies can follow you like your shadow. Facebook might as well be renamed Pregobook. When the one thing your longing is constantly in.your.face. it can be difficult (understatement!) to deal in a healthful way. When I say healthful, I mean FULL of health. Not merely healthy, or lacking disease, but healthFUL, meaning filling you full of health. So... how can you face Baby Mania in a way that fills you with health? FYI, this is a not a, "PULL YOURSELF UP AND GET YOURSELF TOGETHER" message. No, we all know that approach is temporary at best

The thing is, you very rightfully have real feelings and emotions when you encounter pregnancies and babies. Real feelings and emotions that God cares deeply about. Instead of pushing through on your own, let's go to God together. Let's hear His heart on baby mania in a TTC season. 


1. Assess your thoughts

Everything that settles in our hearts starts with a thought. The enemy wants to put all kinds of discouraging thoughts in our minds. If you don't take those thoughts captive, your mind becomes a ripe battleground for jealously, bitterness, anger. The GREAT news is this, you CAN overcome! Yes, you can. 

Renewing your mind is an ongoing work for the Christian, but your dedication will yield a precious harvest: becoming one with the mind of Christ. See: 2 Corinthians 10:5, Romans 12:2, James 4:7, Isaiah 26:3, Philippians 4:8

Don't allow your season of waiting to taint your view of those who aren't walking in your shoes. They probably don't understand. They may seem (or actually be) insensitive to the very real struggle of waiting month after month after month. Things may be said or done that are off color and offensive to you. Remember this: no one has control over your thoughts besides you. It is in your hands to choose the thoughts of God.

Okay it's action time! Take a mental inventory. What's going on in that mind of yours in regards to Baby Mania? Ask God to identify one area that He desires to renew right now. Is renewing your mind an area that you struggle in? I would highly recommend the book Battlefield of the Mind by Joyce Meyer. 


2. Address your feelings  

Once you assess your thoughts, you might notice that there some key areas with which you struggle. DO NOT ignore them! I repeat: do not ignore!!! Don't try to power through, push it down, or be better. Don't ignore what you feel, but don't allow Satan to use it either. Instead, be vulnerable with God, with your spouse, and with trusted friends. Don't live in the hurt/anger/jealousy/doubt/fear/etc. alone. God is not afraid of your blunt honesty. In fact, He desires it! Reading through the Psalms is a great reminder for me that it is not a sin to feel. Run to God with your raw, unrefined, unfiltered emotion. 

Jesus' prayer in Gethsemane (Mathew 26:36-46) and His loud cry from the cross (Matthew 27:46) are painful examples of the vulnerability that God desires from us. He does not want us to hide our feelings and attempt to haphazardly manage them on our own. Our God is a kind and loving Father. His desire is to take your hand and draw you closer. 

What raw feelings do you need to take to God? Take a few minutes to write down 3 feelings that you have when you encounter Baby Mania. Have you taken those to the Father? It's never too late to start. 


3. Assemble a plan

Do you know that God cares about every baby shower you face? Every pregnant belly that takes you by surprise? He really does! Get vision from God for what this season looks like for you. Ask God for wisdom on how to respond to these situations. What does celebrating new life look like for you? The answer will be different for everyone. For some, it might mean not agreeing to host yet another baby shower at this time. For others, God might be leading you to host the shower, even though it will be hard. Is God asking you to serve in the church nursery? Deliver a prophetic word to a new mom instead of avoiding her? Whatever it is, get wisdom from the Father. 

It's peculiar to read through the Jewish laws (example Leviticus 11), instructions on building a tabernacle (Exodus 26), or the detailed genealogies (Numbers). Why is this SO incredibly specific? How does this apply to today? Here's my take away: while God's covenant with us has changed, His character has not. He cares deeply, even about the smallest details of our lives. 

Take a moment to ask God this question, "what is one word to describe how you desire for me to embrace Baby Mania?" Ask and listen and ask some more. Ask about specific upcoming Baby Mania scenarios.


4. Act accordingly

HA, easier said than done! If you've gone through all four of these steps, you've equipped yourself with the tools and foundation to healthfully embrace Baby Mania. It's okay if it's hard. It might be hard, but it's not impossible. Pray through it! You aren't doing this on your own. Jesus is with you, always. Holy Spirit is by your side. Remember that you have a divine helper. 

Rebuke the enemy when he comes around. My favorite mental trick to rebuking the enemy? Brace yourself. This is very technically and theologically advanced. Okay, I'm exaggerating... a lot. Here it is, my handy, dandy, devil whoopin tool... "not today, Satan." That's it. Sometimes I add in a "not tomorrow, or ever," sometimes it's aloud, sometimes in my heart, but really that one tiny sentence is my sword. Not. Today. #NOPE. Speak life, dear sister, and declare, "Today, I will seek the mind Christ. Today, I will be vulnerable with God. Today, I will submit to God's vision for this season. Today, I can do this."

- Article written by Hailee Seiwert

A huge thanks to Hailee Seiwert for contributing this amazing article! Hailee is our Project Coordinator here at I Am Fruitful, and she is SUCH a valuable part of our team!! 

Her heart for the Lord and maturity in the Word are so clear in her writing! We know her article will encourage and bless you as you continue to pursue the Lord while growing your family!

Did God cause my miscarriage?

I recently got back from vacation, and while I was gone, my latest podcast interview with Pregnancy Loss Journey was released! I'm so thrilled to share this one (even if it's delayed), because we discussed TOUGH stuff that I truly pray will help to heal your heart and bring some freedom!

We discussed all the questions that face miscarriage... the battles we hold in our minds... the stuff that's SCARY to talk about (and let's be real- tough to THINK about). Christy and I went there. We got vulnerable, and we shared what we have learned through loss. We opened up about what the Lord has shown us through the horrible process of grief, and how we have come out stronger.

We offer this to provide hope in Jesus. I ALWAYS want to point you to Jesus!! I always want to base my thoughts, teachings, attitudes, and actions on His Word! I'm always going back and asking Him to show me more. So will my perspective, theology, or viewpoint ever change? Maybe... but this is what He's shown me for now!  


I'm pasting Christy's amazing resource list for you here so you can follow along or refer back to these scriptures:

The Questions We Discussed

Did God cause my loss?

 Jeremiah 1:5

John 10:10

Psalm 139

 Exodus 23:26

Revelations 21:4


Is God mad at me or punishing me?

1 Thessalonians 5:9

Job 1:21-22


How does God's sovereignty play into miscarriage and loss?

2 Chronicles 7:14

Exodus 32:14

Jonah 3:10

 Genesis 25:21

 Geneis 30:22

 1 Samuel 1

Isaiah 43: 18-19


Is suffering God's way of saying no?

Romans 5:3-4

 1 Peter 4:12


How can God still be good if in his sovereignty he chose not to save our children?

Proverbs 3:5-7

Ecclesiastes 11:5

Matthew 7:9-11


Is my baby in heaven?

Romans 1:20


How can I ever trust God again?

Psalm 50:14 

Hebrews 13:5

Psalm 34:18


Speak to Us!!

Worship Wednesday is here! How's your week going? Would a word of God change your answer to that question?

Let's take a few minutes today to lift our voices to our God who hears AND speaks. Speak to us, Lord! 

It's National Infertility Awareness Week, and you may be a little discouraged by this point. There are lots of sad stories being shared, there is a lot of negativity, there is a ton of anger in the ttc community. I don't see much hope.

But when we are surrounded by darkness, the best thing in the world is hearing His voice. He makes the darkness tremble and He silences fear. If you relate even a tiny bit, listen below and WORSHIP!

Mosaic MSC "Speak To Us"


Going through infertility or loss? Share this with your family...

I'm so excited to introduce you to my amazing mom, Pam Grosse. I'm so thankful to her for sharing her heart during National Infertility Awareness Week. If you're going through infertility or loss and your family just doesn't seem to understand... send this to them. It's a great way to get a conversation started! Chances are they WANT to be there for you, they just may not know how!! And most likely, they don't have any idea how you feel or how hard this is!! I'll be following up this post soon with a list of ways to support family members going through delayed fertility.

Written by: Pam Grosse

I have never experienced the excruciating loss of an infant or child, or had a miscarriage, or spent years of waiting, hoping, and praying that I would become pregnant.  Nor have I dealt with the stress that can manifest in a marriage when any of these things have occurred.  But, I am the mother of someone who has endured several miscarriages, has spent hours in doctors’ offices, waited and waited and waited for months to conceive only to receive disappointing news, and probably cried buckets of tears.  Sadly, most young women or couples in that position feel very alone and frustrated – and many get depressed.  What is even sadder is that the people around them don’t even know how that person is feeling.  Not even family.  Not even Mom.  That is why I am so thrilled to see I Am Fruitful reaching so many lives and helping so many to heal and have hope.

Lauren & Pam

When my daughter, Lauren Bourne, and her husband, Billy, started I Am Fruitful I was so happy to know that even though they had already had one baby and another would soon be on the way, they wanted to reach out to couples like themselves who were going through similar situations.  There just wasn’t much out there for them when they were going through a tough time, so before they even received their first miracle, God began speaking to them to begin their ministry to women and couples who were going through similar situations or even worse.

As Lauren’s ministry began taking shape I began to realize just how much my daughter hadn’t been able to share with me and how much pain she and Billy had experienced.  Even though Lauren and Billy have a solid marriage with God at the center, they suffered heartache that people who are not in their situation will ever understand.  I thought that because I had such a great son-in-law, he would be there for Lauren and she would be there for him, and I just needed to let them be alone.  Time would heal their wounds. Besides, her dad and I lived 4 ½ hours away, so I would just pray and trust God to answer.  Sadly, they felt very alone with little support.  They were experiencing deep pain and hopelessness and very few people knew what they were going through or how to help.  I believe that most family members or friends who have never gone through a long season of waiting to get pregnant, suffered miscarriage, or even worse – the loss of an infant, will ever fully comprehend what someone going through any of those events truly feels.

Fast forward to two precious gifts (my grandchildren) from God and a ministry that is reaching out to couples who are hurting – just like Lauren and Billy were hurting.  And it all comes down to them surrendering their hearts completely to their heavenly Father, believing that His word to us is true, that His ways and thoughts are much higher than ours, and His plans for His children are  great – to give them a future and a hope (Jeremiah 29:11).  Now, there is a wonderful place to connect with others who are trying to conceive or have suffered an immeasurable loss – a safe place where they can share from the depths of their heart and find resources to help in such a difficult season of grief or waiting.

I now have a much greater understanding of what my children went through with delayed fertility and multiple miscarriages, and I feel honored to be part of the prayer team at I Am Fruitful.  We are here to be a voice to God on behalf of those who are unable to express theirs or for those who need someone to stand with them for their dreams and desires to be met.

You can ask for anything in my name, and I will do it, so that the Son can bring glory to the Father. Yes, ask me for anything in my name, and I will do it!  
— John 14:13-14 (NLT)

My heart goes out to every person who writes in, and although I am not connecting with them on a personal basis, I am interceding on their behalf, thanking our faithful heavenly Father for hearing every prayer and for bringing every answer.  I have already heard many happy stories of what God has done in so many lives, and I want to encourage anyone reading this who is going through a difficult time to press into God and let Him take your burden and pain in exchange for His peace, joy, and healing.  

No matter where you are right now, God knows it, He sees it, and He is there to comfort you, strengthen you, and give you hope – even in the midst of what may be a very dark time.  Joy truly does come in the morning, because the Lord’s mercies are new every morning – and He will never leave you alone.  EXPECT His faithfulness in your life!

Now all glory to God, who is able, through his mighty power at work within us, to accomplish infinitely more than we might ask or think.  
— Ephesians 3:20 (NLT)

Lauren, here! Can I just tell you how amazing this woman is?? This woman I get to call Mom. The one who drives over 4 hours to babysit. The one who always reminds me it's okay to be a little feisty. The one who has encouraged me over the decades to pursue my dreams. 

She may have downplayed her involvement during our waiting season. She and my dad may not have understood, but they were CONSTANTLY encouraging me, sending me emails, shooting me texts with scripture, calling, asking how I was, reminding me that God is bigger. I'm so grateful to have a supportive and Christ-centered family, and I say we need to make Mom's writing a regular thing around here!


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Your scars have meaning too

...Present your bodies as a living sacrifice, holy and acceptable to God, which is your spiritual worship. Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewal of your mind, that by testing you may discern what is the will of God, what is good and acceptable and perfect.
— Romans 12:1-2

It is not easy to look at my mess, to look at my scars and my pain, to look at a mangled pile of my heart and scream out "ABBA... FATHER!" But when we do... When we do THAT is when we offer ourselves up as a living sacrifice. THAT is when Jesus can kneel down and say, "Daughter, look at Me. I have scars too. Though the memory is painful to my core, my scars have meaning. My scars have purpose."

He pleads, "Daughter, please! Look at my hands, touch these scars, they at real. I need you to know that your scars have meaning too, your pain has purpose too, and daughter, if you let me, your worst memory can be redeemed just as mine was. The world told me that I was broken too, but look! Look and Me, daughter." 

Article by Hailee Seiwert

Lauren Bourne

Lauren, here! I'm so grateful to Hailee for sharing her heart. Going through life means inevitably having scars. But our scars have great meaning and they contain purpose! God can use them, He can teach us through them, He can remind us with them. And most of all– He can redeem the injury that caused them.

Going through infertility is HARD. But be encouraged that God can redeem this!  

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